Therapeutic Tears

Some people hate it when they hear me cry.

They think I'm having another nervous breakdown.

But don't they know?

Tears can be therapeutic.

When they fall from my eyes, it's like water washing out the pain inside of me.

If I don't cry it out, my bad feelings will remain trapped inside.

I know you all love me but please...

Once in a while, just let me cry.

Let my tears fall...all my psychiatrists say they are therapeutiic.

Maybe I should sell them in bottles called "Nimia's tears".

In my lifetime, I have shed oceans of tears.

I could have been rich selling those bottles!!!!

Tears I Shed

Last night, for the first time since I learned that I had cancer, I shed tears. But I could not cry out loud because I was lying right beside my mom and I didn't want to alarm her.

Why did I cry? Not out of self-pity. Not because of the pain. But because I was thinking of my son, my poor son. I cannot bear the thought of leaving him. How will he take it? How will he feel not having me around anymore? My poor, poor son! I love him so very much! More than anybody else in this world.

I also cried for the loved ones I will be leaving behind. I want to continue loving and serving many many people.

But then by the way I'm talking, it's as if I'm giving up already. No, I will fight this battle. I will win this war against cancer. One big FIGHT!