Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I Have the "Write" to Live

I have the "write" to live.

Every word, a gift.
Every second, a present.

Every phrase, a blessing.
Every minute, an opportunity.

Every sentence, a reward
Every hour, a chance.

Every paragraph, a source of joy
Every day, a goal to fulfill.

Every chapter, something new.
Every week, more purposes to fulfill.

Every part, a learning experience
Every month, people to love.

As other parts unfold,
More and more lessons told.

And at the end of the book, a life well-lived.
In the end, my mission accomplished.

Then my Creator shall say,
"Well done, my faithful child!"

Monday, June 29, 2009

Talentado ang mga Gamo (The Gamo Family is Gifted)

I come from a truly gifted family...so gifted I could raise funds out of our collective talents.

My Kuya can do a comedy act, my nephew Mico can act.

My niece Denise can sing.

My other nieces can dance.

One of my nephews can bake cakes.

My mom can ballroom dance.

I can write scripts, songs, poems.

P1,000 per ticket. Any takers anyone?

Sunday, June 28, 2009

My Zillions of Crushes


At age 48 I still have them.

The latest one is ___________. Ha ha.

One of my earliest crush is Mark Lester of "Oliver Twist" fame.

My longest crush was a man of wisdom.

My biggest hang-over was my favorite boyfriend.

One of my childhood crushes was a neighbor with polio.

One of my college crushes was a tall guy from UP.

One of my high school crushes was a writer from an exclusive high school near the place where we lived.

My craziest crush was over this blue-eyed guy who was super rich.

Two of my current crushes are younger than me.

Guys, if you only knew, this pretty woman had a crush on you...

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Memories of MJ and FF

Michael Jackson...

People making lists buying special gifts...

Billy Jean...


A legend has passed away. An era has ended. What next?

Farrah Fawcett...

Charlie's Angel...

She with those famous blond locks...

Lost to cancer in the end.

Death of a beautiful woman.

How sad that fame had turned to controversy, beauty into tragedy when the Grim Ripper arrived for both souls.

Death! Have thy way with me! I shall face thee victorious!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Like a Zombie

I feel like a zombie these days. My eyes can't stay open. I kept dozing off this day and yesterday...I just have to SLEEP! So sleep, I shall....good night!

Goodbye Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Before You Reach the Point...

You work hard day in and day out. You spend only a few hours of sleep each night and try to take naps throughout the day. But there comes a point when productivity and quality of work have got to suffer. Before you reach the point of exhaustion and complete fatigue, REST. Come before the, Lord, and say, "Lord, I have given my all up to this point. Now please take over while I rest awhile."

This is my prayer. Amen.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Work to the Max

Today, I was swamped with work and future projects...

...an FGD report on maternal milk where I did poorly

...cleared a musical play for a friend

...a taste test for a regular client

...a research proposal for one of my former students

...teaching modules for one of my bosses

...a prayer book project proofreading job

...a transcription job for stories

...a tracking study for a huge global company

...a workshop on the importance of marketing research and types of MR studies

...marketing person for a restaurant in Quezon City and a resort hotel in Palawan

I should be rich in a short while and totally debt free. I claim this in the mighty name of Jesus!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

One Litre of Tears

There is this Japanese movie (TV series?) entitled "One Litre of Tears." It is about a young woman afflicted with a rare brain disease and knew she was dying. The movie had a lot of touching moments and yes, it made me cry. But it also made me laugh. I love the character of the father, he is so funny! The film is also a love story as the boyfriend turned into a doctor to find a cure for the girl. But then, she died...leaving behind diaries full of hope and inspiration and the zest for living that one would not expect from a dying individual.

Am I dying?

The Light of Jesus has a special one-month project "What if you had 30 days to live?". What would you do? How would you think? What would your priorities be? Would you resolve to be happier, wiser with your money, a better steward of your gifts, a more loving person, or what?

Today, I had to work on a report. It took longer than expected because I had to listen to a tape wherein the participants spoke fast and all at the same time! I was supposed to go out with dear, cherished friends tonight but my son and mom did not allow me. They said I would have a hard time only. I should be glad - a sign that they cared (even if I was disappointed at not seeing those friends...there will be other days). And I will have time to finish the report, more importantly. That is responsibility over recreation. Better called delayed gratification.

My day will come...I will just wait a while.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Poetry at the End of A Day


Well-spent...worth every cent.

A day of work and labour, a day of rest and leisure.

Two kinds of chicken, KFC and Mang Bok's. Heaven!

Preaching by Brother Bo, homily by Fr. Mario. Wisdom and wit.

Two brothers danced to the tune of "You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban. Awesome!

A new wallet. Sugar-free candy. A handbag. Gifts from abroad, blessings from above.

Jesus sleeping in the midst of a storm. I am in the midst of one right now. How come I am not sleeping?

Fathers' Day. I miss my Dad!

Plans for the future, sunny and bright. Dreams, never ending, never-fading.

Closure with ex-boyfriends. The end. And the beginning of renewed relationships.

A beautiful day. And in the end, I discover poetry.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

To be Both Sad and Glad

I am both sad and glad.

Sad because I need P1.5 million to pay off debts and buy my medicines/other medical expenses.

Glad because I have a God who watches over me. He is my Healer, Provider, Father, Friend, Consoler, Comforter, Source of Joy and Wisdom. My beloved.

Thank You, Lord in advance!

Friday, June 19, 2009


I was sleepy the whole day because I have hardly been sleeping these past few days. I must take care of my health so I shall reward myself by sleeping early tonight.

There comes a point when one's productivity reaches nil point due to overwork.

Well, hello bed, here I come!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

A Very Busy Day

A had a very busy day today because I had to finish a report which was due yesterday. I made it!

But then, I barely started on another report which is due tomorrow. Since I will be leaving early for the hospital for blood tests and treatment (my third cycle), I have to wake up early to work on said report.

Busy, busy! But I love my job.

I had a visitor about lunch time today. An old friend, Dally. We enjoyed talking and catching up on each other.

It's been a long day. My mom is asking me to sleep already. So sleep I must.

Good night!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009


Am still not through with a report due this morning. I asked for a one-day extension which means two things: I have a long night ahead and this post is going to be short. Super short.

So short. It's done. he he

My thought for today: Grace is love given to you to be shared.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The Joys of Being Me

I wouldn't exchange places with anyone, given the chance. No way! I'm a very happy person, believe it or not. Despite of - or rather because of - all the trials and problems that l have experienced and am experiencing right now, I can honestly say I am happy.


Take today for instance. This was supposed to be another "ordinary" day. But I am happy because...

...I had breakfast of chicken sandwich with cucumber and tomatoes and ended up with a sunkist

...I chatted with friends on Skype, YM and Facebook plus landline

...I had a meeting with the directress of Philippine Institute for the Deaf and we covered a lot of ground in just one hours - plans and projects for the NGO

...I worked on two projects both due tomorrow but I finished one ahead of the other because it is such a short project

....A friend passed by to borrow my microcassette recorder. She agreed that I write her beautiful love story for a magazine or two. She is donating one of her computers to PID.

...I have decided to tithe again.

....More friends are visiting me one of these days.

....I ate pancit palabok for lunch and dinner, and also barbecue for dinner.

See? Such a simple day but full of happiness and a sense of fulfillment.

Monday, June 15, 2009


Worked on two reports today. Finished the topline report because it was so simple. The other one is taking more time because I have to learn more about Excel in Vista.

Had two visitors, former Maryknollers - Maitet who is based in Singapore, and Beda who is working for UP Kalasag. They brought delicious pancit from Little Quiapo.

Exploring my dream of a building....virtual first, then reality. In God's time.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Family Time Again!

This has been another super fun day! Why? Because family members came over and we had an "all-purpose" gettogether - for Fathers' Day, birthdays, my sister's promotion, my son's graduation.

There was food galore - barbecue, isaw, pancit canton, KFC (original and spicy), Mang Bok's lechon manok, kare-kare, Indian mango, chocolate cake, puto, ensaymada, mamon, softdrinks, coffee.

We reminisced about Matulungin life (our old house where we lived together in one roof) - food like most, memorable incidents, what items recall, etc. If only we could rent the place for just one night when the real owners are out but that is just a crazy dream, I know.

They watched funny videos in my new computer.

Everyone said I m looking good. Well I feel good as well. How could I not be? Surrounded by loved ones. Filled with blessings.

Ready? Get set? Go 1-2-3 I thank and praise You, Lord!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Non-Stop Dreaming

Will I ever stop dreaming? There is nothing wrong with dreaming so long as we take steps towards their realization.

I dream...

...of having my own house someday

...of helping the Philippine Institute for the Deaf with its many projects

...of building the Lighthouse of Jesus initially in cyberspace

...of having several streams of income

...of marketing the services of viable companies

...of writing a variety of stuff - blogs, books, scripts, poems, songs, magazine articles, etc.

Today I had three sets of visitors:

...a client-friend who gave mamon and some cash donation

...two former sisters in community

...my bi-polar support group members - they brought lots of food and bought my books

Praise You, Lord!

Friday, June 12, 2009


Once in a rare while, one comes across a work of art that takes his/her breath away.

This was done by my artist-friend, Diane, and entitled it "Lost". Beautiful, isn't it?

No other words suffice. I'm a loss for words.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

A Great Day!

Today has been a great day!...

...I trained three people on research design/proposal-making. They were able to prepare a real proposal for one of their clients

...my best friend came over and I typed a letter for her. She gave me and my mom some food stuff and lent me some DVDs.

...two friends visited me and brought me hamburger and fries but they couldn't stay long because one of them had to do the payroll

...I have a new computer with LCD monitor! It's so much faster than my old one. We also bought a new computer table. I donated my old computer to the Philippine Institute for the Deaf.

Thanks a lot, Lord! Praise You for this wonderful gift of a day!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Two Reports and a Movie

The major activities for today are I finished two reports and watched a movie, "Alex and Emma". Not bad for somebody who hardly slept last night.

Throughout the day, I took naps. But nothing like a good loooooong, restful sleep. When will that be, I wonder?

My keyboard got broken so my faithful computer expert of a friend, Noel, bought one for me with a wireless mouse and 10 rewritable CDs with case. To follow tomorrow, is my new computer - with flat LCD monitor and CPU plus computer table. Yehey!

Today, I chatted with an old friend who has third stage cancer. There will be benefit concerts for him and he is giving me two tickets. Yehey!

God is good. He is very good. Nope, magnanimous is the word!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Facing a Report, Facing Visitors

Today I began the task of redoing another person's report. Quite difficult so I asked a friend to help me do it.

I also faced three visitors today, members of the Charismatic Community I belong to, Light of Jesus. We had fun reminiscing, catching up with what's currently happening to our personal and community lives, and looking forward to an exciting future.

Discussed my book with the editor of Shepherd's Voice Publications. Would have to shoulder the printing, marketing, and editing costs after all. Well, might as well, look at it as an investment, a very good one.

Sleepy already...Nimia Gamo, signing off.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Eighth Treatment Done

How fast time flies! My eighth treatment is done and I will now have a 10-day rest before my next (third) cycle. My doctor says...

...I'm doing fine

...My threshhold for pain is high

...I have don't have dietary restrictions except sugar because I'm diabetic

...No interventions with my medicine - no mangosteen tea, no Goji, no Reliv. (But secretly, I say it's my call later on)

I'm battling the big C head-on! Let's wait and see.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Sweet Sunday

This has been a sweet Sunday because...

...I was able to watch Bo on TV and he talked about the operating system of the universe. It is not luck. Not serving a capricious, self-centered God. But it is the law of the harvest. What you sow you reap. The universe is one big Echo Valley. So keep saying, "Universe, I love you!" and the universe will love you back.

...I watched another healing mass on TV with Fr. Mario as the priest presider. He was resplendant in gold because today is the Feast of the Holy Trinity.

...I am going to help out my Dad's favorite NGO, Philippine Institute for the Deaf, by preparing a grant proposal and acting as business development officer. I really believe in the school's mission to make the deaf speak because deaf people are basically not mute and are quite capable of speaking.

...I finished reading the book "Daboy" about Rudy Fernandez written by his sister, Marie. It's very well written and I learned so much about Rudy which are moving, sad, inspiring and admirable all in one.

...My own book is going along fine with lots of people helping me. We are aiming for an early December launch this year. Yehey, finally! After several years in the making, it's going to see the light of day!

...I talked to several people over the phone, Skype, YM and facebook. Former students, former boss, friends.

...I watched "Wow Mali", a sitcom and a dance show at ABC5. Good shows!

...I received lots of stuff from the US from relatives there - sugar free chocolates, perfume, lipstick, a bag, a make up kit, a watch and cash for my medicine. My sister also gave me three underwear.

Thank You, Lord, for a sweet, sweet Sunday!

Saturday, June 6, 2009


Once in a rare while, one gets to watch an impactful movie. Last night, I had the wonderful privilege of watching "Proof" on DVD. It's a moving story of a woman whose genius of a father (a renowned mathematician) has just died. But this father was also mad in a crazy way and she herself was scared that she may have inherited her own father's insanity.

The movie stars the beautiful Gwyneth Paltrow and the famous Anthony Hopkins. Perhaps, the reason I liked the movie so much is because I could relate to it. As a person afflicted with bi-polar mood disorder, I know how it is to be crazy. I am far from being a genius but they say there is a thin line between genius and insanity.

The other reason I liked "Proof" is that it is also a love story and I just love love stories! It's the romantic in me again!

Between "Elizabethtown" and "Proof", I enjoyed "Elizabethtown" more because it is more romantic and entertaining while I prefer watching "Proof" because it is deeper and more dramatic.

Two recently watched movies. Time well spent.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Look Mom, I Could Go to the Bathroom!

Early, today I had a breakthrough! I had a strong urge to pee but didn't want to wake up my mom and son. So what I did was ever slowly, alternatively walked and sat on a chair to go to the bathroom myself. I used my cane, held on to doors and walls and what-have-yous, to get there. What a relief!

And since I was already inside the bathroom, I decided to shampoo my hair and take an honest-to-goodness bath! What a delight! I felt oh so clean and fragrant again!

It turned out that my son was still awake and he helped me dress up. I put deodorant, powder and cologne.

Those of you reading this might be wondering - why the big fuss over going to the bathroom all by myself and doing my thing there? Because I have not been able to do this for the past several weeks! My hair was so oily already and I felt so dirty and smelly. There's no substitute for a good, long shower. A sponge bath is nothing in comparison.

And so I know, that I am on my way to recovery and complete healing from my cancer. I just know it!

Praise You, Lord!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Simply a Day

It's amazing what one can do even while "trapped" in a wheelchair in a small condo unit in Cubao.

Today was simply a day when...

...I communicated with God and felt close to Him as I wrote in my spiritual journal, listened to Gabay on Radio Veritas for the first time, heard mass, listened to bible reflections, watched "Preacher in Blue Jeans", finished reading a spiritual book

...I communicated via Skype with a friend in Cebu and with another friend in Singapore

...I talked over the phone with sisters in community

...I chatted in YM with a cousin and a few friends

...I listened to original compositions of a friend, to a Gary V. CD

...I kept checking my email and facebook

...I started reading a book on Daboy Fernandez written by his sister Marie who is a toastmaster member and officer

... I kept taking naps throughout the day

...I did some stuff regarding my book, "Mission:Possible!"

...I cleaned my work area and made it much neater.

So today was simply a day...no less wonderful than most of the days of my life.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

A Productive and Fun Day

Today, I did a lot of things...

...I wrote a long letter to God in my spiritual journal

...I went through my emails and facebook

...I prayed the rosary and chaplet to the divine mercy with the CD, listened to Preacher in Blue Jean, read spiritual stuff

...I chatted with a co-bipolar patient

...I put pictures on my blogsite so it won't look drab

...I put pictures on an FGD report i wrote

...I bought a new DVD player and writer for my computer and had it installed, and had my printer fixed

...I trained four staff of my client on categorization of responses

...I entertained three former students who visited me and brought fruits and we made kwento, one sang "You Raise Me Up" for me

...I talked to some other former students on the phone as they are helping me with my book, "Mission: Possible!"

...I watched "Elizabethtown", a really nice love story and drama. My favorite lines in the entire movie were:

"So you failed. Alright you really failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You failed. You think I care about that? I do understand. You wanna be really great? Then have the courage to fail big and stick around. Make them wonder why you're still smiling."

...I was visited by three marketing research friends and I scanned their letterhead with executive summary of our report to a client and emailed. I gave them a copy of my book.

...I received from Gary V. his responses to my email and his folio via messenger.

A pretty productive day for me and fun, too!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

A Day of Rest and Communication

This was a day of rest in the sense that I didn't have work. A report that I was supposed to revise was edited by another consultant (my immediate client) but she said it was good, overall, as usual. I will just add pictures to make it look more visually appealing.

What are the things that I did today?...

...talked to some clients re collections and future projects

...a friend came by to get some tapes and batteries and return some stuff

...talked to a friend on Skype

...talked to my mom's friend on the phone (she gave me a big bouquet of flowers which really cheered me up)

...chatted with my cousin from Spain

...talked to my sister in community over the phone and she prayed over me

...my best friend visited me and we typed captions for the pictures she will give her priest-friend. She brought me a book written by a priest with cancer. She also brought fruits. We ate dinner of spaghetti, salad, and lanzones.

...I went through my emails and facebook

Thank You, Lord for this nice, nice day of rest and "communication", keeping in touch with loved ones.

Monday, June 1, 2009

A Day of Blessings

My day started very early today...I don't know the time of day. But I do remember praying the Holy Rosary and the Chaplet of the Divine Mercy along with the CD.

I am reading a wonderful book entitled Volume Two, Direction for Our Times, wherein God speaks to us through Anne, a lay apostle. More than ever, I want to be holy....and yet, that is much easier than done.

Since it's Monday, I got my blood sugar and it's normal.

We were early at Kidney Institute. I had my blood tests. We had a very early lunch. I ate Wendy's shrimp sandwich and macaroni salad.

Then, I went to the chapel. I read my book, prayed, fell asleep, and heard mass. At last! I received Holy Communion.

I had my Day 4, Cycle 2 treatment of Velcade. Nothing to it.

A friend visited with lots of gifts - Bangkok lanzones, a DVD player, lots of DVDs, a rosary and a pill box. I gave her three books - one for her, one for a common friend, and one for her priest-friend.

I revised a simple report.

Now, I'm sleepy but very happy. Another day of blessings and I have God to thank!